is not that easy bheb..

Fulfilling my darkest dreams,Wanting to hold on,but your slipping through the seems.Drying the tears that continue to fall,discarding the pictures left on my wall.Missing you till it hurts to breath,wanting to see you,wishing this memory would leave.Hearing your voice all around me,looking around, just to see.Deleting your name,erasing all things,no more games.I've decided to be strong,I've realized you were all wrong.Realized all your lies,ended the games,broke all our ties.You come along to say your sorry,but bheb,it's the same old story.A girl with a broken heart,it's time to part,and erase you from my memory.

disaster

I'm falling apart with every secondAnd still I prefer it this wayBecause i would go to hell and backIf it meant that i could stayBecause a moment in this hellIs equal to a thousand in this blissI'm about to suffer eternal strifeSo please allow me another poisoned kissThis was a train wreck from the startBut I couldn't watch you shed a single tearNow years of agony have passedAnd I don't know what I'm still doing hereEverything has gone so wrongAnd yet the love i feel for you seem so rightI day dream about you all dayAnd I cry myself to sleep at nightI guess when it comes down to convoluted feelingsYou could say i am the masterI found a hell in this heaven Call it the perfect disaster

changed

I was told change was something good,Living is something you have to do,But I was never told how to live my life,And I never had any help,Until i had met you,Things had all seemed to change,I knew how to live my life,And who to live it with,I was told to do what i want,Not what others want me to do,Listen to myself,And be myself,Then I had you,Things seemed to stay the same,I knew I had to change my life,And how to change it,I was told I would get hurt,But not that I would hurt others,I had to listen to myself,And be myself the best that I could,Then you were gone,Things were changes,I knew that I hurt you,And who I hurt you with....

fade away

There was a time when we made each other smile. Just one look could make us melt, and nothing could replace the way we felt.Then we started drifting; we were supposed to grow together but instead we grew apart, and we lost what was in our hearts.The love still may linger among us, but the damage has been done. Forgiveness is required, but is not easily obtained. Forever in my mind, your betrayal will remain.Pain will ensue us for as long as the wounds take to heal. The scars may never escape our minds, but they will become less visible with time.Eventually it will get easier, and someone else will envelope us with love again. We will learn to forgive each other for all our wrongs, and the pain won't be as strong.As time goes on we'll be reminded of the good times shared. Our minds will fill with laughter, tears and memories of a long ago lover. When the pain lessens, we can be grateful for what we had and not be dismal that it's over.Happiness will yet again fill our hearts. A smile will appear upon our faces without force. Our hearts will pump, and we will be emptied of all our remorse.

im sorry...

Don't know how to let u in i don't know how to look in Ur eyes for i been hurt too may times i wanna love u but my heart wont let me i wanna hold u but i just don't know how tooi get scared every time u tell me u love me i want to trust u but i don't even trust myself to love again for i have wrong judgments in every guy i meet...

great hate

The sun is shining everyday now.
You make me smile in every way now.
I wish you could see just how you make me feel.
All these feelings seem so unreal.
You take my hand and you lead me to the car.
As happy couples do we lay under all the stars.
You took my light from all my happy days.
You took my emotion from my face in every way.
I wish you could feel what it is you make me feel.
All the pain you caused me is only so surreal.
Started as a gentleman, ended as your true self.
You stole all my strength and abused my perfect health.

:c

First man to love you,
second one to breakyour heart in two.
This is how the game goes,
but at every turn,you somehow always lose.
Can't trust anybody,
because they go behind your back.
Don't really know what to do,so go curl into a ball,
and cry your heart out,sweet one.
Nobody's gonna help you now,
since you left them all out.